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“Days I didn’t feel worthy”

What on earth am I here for?

I want to walk out on life’s door.

Nothing on earth brings me joy,

I’m starting to think I’m God’s little toy

A cycle of work to pay for never-ending bills,

I hate these things, they don’t give me thrills.

The evil people prosper yet how come I do not?

Can’t even afford food or meds, I’m beginning to rot.

I’m so angry, I lash out on every person I see,

It’s so frustrating to see others are okay or happy.

While I am down here but my dreams are flying away.

I guess that’s how unfair life goes anyway.

Lord, I’m pouring my heart out towards you.

I admit, I’m slightly feeling better too.

My emotions were getting more powerful than me.

Please pull me out of this deep misery.

What I don’t understand is why you’re keeping me alive,

It seems you always give me a chance to obey and thrive.

Why did you have to love somebody like me?

These are the days I didn’t feel worthy.

Copyright Star Ashley Cruz.

November 19 2016

“Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice.” – Ephesians 4:31

God’s revelation to me:

– I have been stubborn in doing evil.

– Money was my security, not God.

– I wanted my will, not  God’s will.

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R.I.P. (Radical. Immortal. Poetry.)

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★Born again Christian ★BS Tourism Graduate ★Artist ★Musician ★Poet/Writer ★Bookworm ★Japanophile ★Choleric/Melancholic #LittleBlackStar

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