I never wished to be the breadwinner of my family,
because I detest any kind of responsibility
Or making sure their expectations are met,
Because if not, it would feel like facing death.
I’m sorry I jumped from one work to another,
too many careers that had led to disaster.
I felt empty, doing a job I do not like,
it saps the energy within my very psyche.
My family has been considerate of me,
but I cannot avoid feeling so guilty.
I pray the next one would be the best
So that I can put my mind at rest.
June 21 2016